Just had it to say it. She let her feelings be known and I made the move and we went all night all over the brand new living room furniture and their brand new mattress. He is the most generous friend I have ever had and has done so much for me. I do this to him and I don't feel any contempt for myself. We've worked together for so long. We have the same friends. We all go to same places. If this was ever leaked oh the shame he would feel and how despicable I would be. What he would do to me but all that fear is reserved to that final moment. I only fantasize about how this would spread throughout the workplace and in what terms it would benefit me. I only wait till he his gone again.
Today, we were on our way out home and stopped off at the bathroom. I was in the middle of relieving myself until he said, "My wife said you cheated." I was caught off guard and asked what he meant by that. "She said you cheated. You smoked a cigarette." She's a smart devil. She deliberately had him say that.
I am scum and how it good it feels to be.