If you are being serious, then there are lots of places that will help you, even without religion. As a matter of fact, I would guess that a lot of people, religious or not, would not want their friends and family to know about such an issue. I assume you mean you don't want to tell them because they will just tell you to speak to a pastor or find god for help?

Here is something that might actually help:

1-800-662-HELP (4357) "SAMHSA’s National Helpline is a free, confidential, 24/7, 365-day-a-year treatment referral and information service (in English and Spanish) for individuals and families facing mental and/or substance use disorders." and "this service provides referrals to local treatment facilities, support groups, and community-based organizations. Callers can also order free publications and other information."

https://www.samhsa.gov/find-help/national-helpline

https://findtreatment.samhsa.gov/locator

Can't hurt just to call and have a chat with them. Might be able to hook you up with a local agency or someone to talk to.