Thread: Something is severely wrong. On Introspection and Depression.

I guess I'm just really sad because I don't know what the fuck I'm doing wrong. I try to go out and meet people and put myself out there and enjoy my time and make people laugh, but in the end I come up empty handed. I am always the one asking people what they are doing for their nights, not one single person--NOT ONE--ever calls me up to ask me.

I've never actually seriously considered suicide but I often wonder, besides the small family I have (Mother, Sister, Grandmother) who the fuck would care if I died?

That might have been the issue the last time with it being your house, but you seem to have a better attitude towards parties and all compared to way back when you were thinking like below.

Originally Posted by Anonymous

I'm not even complaining about going to sleep alone tonight, I think tonight was a vast improvement over any other night.

You can't judge the night you had based on whether you ended up in bed with someone. If you do then you're gonna have bipolar nights - either fantastic or really shit. If you enjoyed yourself, made some new friends and had a laugh then ask if that's an improvement on what else you might have done that night. If it is, then it's been a good experience.

The drunk guy was, by means of being drunk, not thinking straight. You can't judge someone's personality based on what they're like when they've been drinking, things would probably have been different if he was sober. If they won't have been then fuck him, you don't want to know him. As for the sorority girl, you probably just picked the wrong one to talk to. I know that as a newcomer to a group, you can be drawn in by the wrong ones. I've seen it happen, far too often. You just have to pick yourself back up and find someone new to talk to. It gets easier with time, trust me.