God I miss LWS, wish I could be posting this there, but here will do fine.

So, I've never really had problems with my life, always do well in school and have friends and all that, but everyday walking down the school hallway I always find myself zoning out and runing on auto pilot because I do the EXACT same thing every day. I know I'm in a rut.

I'm on a week long break from school this week and was happy because, well of course, no school. I decided to spice things up and have a party (my friends and I don't drink or anything so its more of just a hang out then a real party). So my one friend is Jewish and, through an exchange thing in her church, had 5 girls from Isreal staying with her. My friends and I thought that it would kind of be a kill having them around all night but grudgingly accepted it. We couldn't have been more wrong.

They got to my place late and walked in and mingled (they spoke suprisingly good english). They were fun, nice, flirty, and really pretty. The party was still kind of dull, but not because of the Jews, but because of our other friends who are girls. They seemed so full of drama and bitchy in comparison, and when they all left together the party became extremely fun. Even though it was only 20 minutes between the time the regulars left and the Jewish girls left, those 20 minutes made it the most fun pary my friends and I have had in a long while.

We played some game where the girls sit in the guy's lap and there is one person without anyone in their lap. 2 names get called and the girls try to get to their lap while the guys try to hold them back. Needless to say it was a nice time to touch each other and all that good stuff, just having fun, and we really did have a lot of fun in those 20 minutes. And we realized later that the people we usually hang out with are really dull in compared to them and just sit around and don't do anything. These girls really showed me and my other friends that we are just kind of dealing with the same things and that even when we think we are having a good time with them, are really are just going through the same things that used to be fun.

That was last night. Today I found myself extremely depressed because I found that even the parties that are supposed to break up the monotiny are boring ad monotinous because everyone knows each other too well. I'm really bored and none of the usual stuff like video games or working out even seem worth it. I laid in bed all day for the first time in a long time.

I don't really know what to do. This has shown me that I really hate going through the motions like always. It also showed me that the girls my friends and I hang out with are really no longer fun (there are 2 divisions of them because they had a fight a year ago. I'm kinda in the middle so both sides come to my house and sit in opposite ends of the room doing nothing). I don't really know how to change things. My friends and I hang out without girls and have a good time but eventually it gets to the point where we need some girls there because without them the party just seems incomplete. There aren't really other people to hang out with, everyone in my grade is friends, but have set people they invite to parties so joining another "group" is kind of out.

I'm sorry to whoever actually read that, it must have been pretty dull. And I'm sorry I had a lot of detail, I just feel like there really isn't anything better to do. I started this week happy to have a break, and now can't wait for it to end and to go back to school. We're going to try to hang out with my Jewish friend and her friends Saturday night before they leave on Sunday, I don't know if it'll happen, but thats really all I have to look forward to now. And no, I don't "like" any of them, I just really like their personalities and how they make things fun.

Any suggestions on how to spice my life up or anything would be great, because I don't think that I can keep going on doing the same thing. Thanks.