OP here.

Just 10 days left till court. I'm still terrified, but gained a bit more confidence thanks to some of the replies. Thank you.

I've written a letter that I hope I can read to the judge at my hearing, and would like to know what you guys think about it. I just finished writing it literally 2-3 minutes ago, so I apologize for errors, etc. Feel free to add some pointers.

"Your honor,

I am not going to stand here and tell you that I've done nothing wrong, or deny the accusations. Even though I was absolutely terrified, and still am, I told the truth with hesitation. But I want you to understand ma'am/sir, that what I've done wasn't to simply take advantage of name removed by mods. I truly was in love with her. I cared about her deeply, and wanted the best for her. Before we began dating, we were very close friends. Even though we had a crush with one another, we laughed at the idea of being together because of the age difference. At the time, she was heavily into alcohol, drugs, and just simply talking to the wrong people. We began dating because, well, it was one of those "caught in the moment" incidents. It was completely idiotic, and though I knew it was wrong, I let my emotions get the best of me. I tried to help her stop doing those horrible things to herself, but she refused to. There were points were I thought I achieved, but rather than her learning she didn't need those things in her life, she just learned to hide it better and better from me as time went by. I couldn't take it anymore. I tried to break things off before me and her did ANYTHING sexual, but she refused to let go. She would literally show up at my door step unannounced repeatedly, begging for another chance. There was one incident were she called me 40 times in an hour. And another, were showed up at my home after school, with a small box cutter blade in her hand, cutting herself till I opened the door. It got to the point that in order for her to get me to take her back, she'd threaten to kill herself. She attempted to do just that a few times before I knew her by overdosing, alcohol poising, and slitting her wrist. I wasn't aware of ANY of that till after we began dating. I obviously out of fear, took her back. Hoping that things would get better, I encouraged her to get proffesional help. Though it took her MONTHS to finally agree to it, she did. She began seeing a psychologist, a psychiatrist for her depression and anxiety medication, and even stayed at the psychiatric ward for a week. By that time, I couldn't deal with it anymore and decided to let go, no matter what. Again, she refused to, but I didn't give in. Rather than threatening to kill herself however, she threatened to tell the police about us, yet, I didn't take her back. Now we're here. The sole reason why I'm here is for the simply fact that I didn't want to take her back. Even though what I did was wrong, I don't think that's fair. I feel like a complete failure to my friends, my family, and to society in general your honor. I'm extremely ashamed and embarrassed. But I hope you give me the chance to redeem myself ma'am/sir. Prior to this incident, I've NEVER been arrested or had ANY trouble with the law. I've done whatever I can to completely avoid her by getting my number changed for example. This experience will haunt me for the rest of my life, but I don't want it to stop me from achieving my goals and dreams because of ONE mistake I made. I beg you your honor, please don't register me as a sex offender. I'd me more than willing to do community service, or probation. Thank you."

Thanks again to those who have helped.