I am stressed out all of the time, I struggle to pay bills on a job that pays minimum wage. I work for a misandrist, and I am a second class citizen at work. I am so tired of feeling so fucking helpless, I hate my very existence, I don't even feel like a person any longer. I strive for so much, yet fall short and feel so unaccomplished. I am not sure what to do.

I have thought about going on anti-depressants, but the only thing that scares me are the side effects that could worsen the situation. While I am not quite at the point of eliminating myself from the maelstrom of nothingness I see in every day, I feel I might be pushed further towards it. I was long in denial that it was simply situational, but the more I see every day, the more I am seeing that there is more to it than just having some shitty things in my day...