I think because other people notice where I am looking. Then they will ask me what am I looking at or do I like the person or they will just watch me or laugh or tell me that I shouldn't stare/follow them around because someone other than them might think something is wrong with me. Or maybe they would want me to look at them instead. Then they will start talking to me to get my attention. Either that or they don't want me to stare at the girl.

I don't want to come that early though. I mean we aren't supposed to come more than a half hour ahead. I usually just take a bus that arrives soon before my shift starts. Or if I come early just bring something to do in the food court like a book or magazine to read, video games, music or I just do math review/ write or draw something.

Then I go to work. I mean if I was earlier than I am now, you know someone like my supervisors could see me staring at the girls. They might not want me to because they don't want me to be happy.