I'm male and 18. We aren't dating and it isn't a FWB deal. We just know each other all our lives ever since we were little our parents' whom have been neighbors and friends for years would go over to each others' houses. We were always friends and been in each others lives and there for one another at the best and worst of our lives. We lost our virginity to each other and we got drunk first together and smoked weed first together. Because we live next door to each other we usually spend the night in one or the others room like we never sleep alone UNLESS I'm with my girlriend or she is with her boyfriend. When they aren't there we are with each other and sometimes we have sex without the knowledge of our boyfriend and girlfriend. I know this has to stop but I know she has feelings for me and her boyfriend and I have feelings for her and my girlfriend. We are going to the same state college around us and we are looking at getting a an apartment together because our parents are paying for our rent until we get decent jobs. I am really worried of our boyfriend and girlfriend finding out especially if they move in with us because I don't want to hurt anyone but I don't want to hurt my best friend. I don't know what to do and I can't sleep I've been up all night getting high and drinking wine listening to spotify all night.